I guess that is what I am looking for. Her to stop bucking and settle down so that I can talk to her. But I don't know if she ever will. She needs me and then when the dust is settled she pulls back???? SHows indications of caring; but???
You ask what scares me? What scares me is to never be with her again. 22yr history togethere and I guess as much as she has caused us and herself problems, I wasn't innocent in all of this. I guess that I wanted that chance to show her I have worked on me and am the person she fell in love with and even improved. All I wanted was that chance to try. To not get hat chance scares me. I married her for better or worse and I meant it!!!
