I know; but I just have these bad days. I see hope and try hard not to get too up for it. Like tonight I usually go out with my friend and he is on business. So, when I drop the kids off, there is a want to be able to sit and talk to her; but I know that might be a push. I guess her signals are that she still cares and that there is probably hope; but I guess I wonder what holds her back, if that is the case.
Believe me, I do things; but after awhile, it gets boring and such. I am not a big reader and I am more of a people person; but when I am out with a group of people, the fact that I am not with anyone definitely comes into my head. I do keep busy and on Tuesday swam and today workout at the YMCA...Just what makes me a good engineer is my ability to think of all the possibilities. It is that same skill that causes all this thinking about her and I.
Frank
P.S. When you see stories parallel to your own, like Just, you start to get some hope that your sitch will go the same way. Also, for the past year, there was no hope and then since November, it has gotten better and that is the part that confuses me. Like I said I try to temper thos fellings; but it is hard.
