Just,

Thanks...I guess I just need words of encouragement sometimes so that I don't push. It tears my heart out to have her let me hold her, hug her or that she does something with us and hten I feel that she is distant. I wonder if it is me she doesn't want or something. I know I am worth being with and that someday it will be with someone. I just don't know how to let her go yet. I don't want to; but I also get scared that I am never going to get anywhere. I still love her; but does she love me back. How can she if she cared for that other man and was physical with him?

You mention being patient and supportive. I have tried to be those things and still do; but it is hard sometimes to seethe line where being supportive becomes pathetic.

As you said she left me and I still hold hope that she will realize that she made a mistake; but what if she doesn't? Then I have put my life on hold for someone ; but I can't pursure something else right now. That would be unfair to another person...However, I feel alone and that sucks.

Also, it's hard to have been able to hold her hug her and then have her lay with me and then go cold turkey because she has pulled back. Antoher thing is that I think that if she cared, she would be calling me...Am I wrong in this? I s inot time to call or is the non-calls and indication that she doesn't care?

Frank