My own insecurities creeping in. I dropped the kids off and I had said that I would help get the 2 boys read for bed so that my daughter and X could watch a Disney movie together. Well, my X and I joked for a bit and she and I had 2 wine coolers, by her offering. Things were good and I gave the boys showers and played with them before putting them to bed.
While I was there tough, she sat on the other side of the room from where I was sitting...Kind of felt like she was keeping our distance. My mind says what doe that mean? Does it mean she is pushing me away because she doesn't care or because she is afraid, confusion???? Who knows???
Why am I still allowed over there...Wasn't it enough that I stood by her...You see, my problem is that I never wanted the divorce. And now I am left wondering why she doesn't come around. But then I realize that my concept of a good period of time is different than someone elses. For the confused person, am I to assume it doesn't all of a sudden happen overnight? I am trying not to come across as pushy; but I feel like I have to keep a secret, that I promised her. Does the friendliness, then the ambivalence mean anything??? I guess i am lost as to interptet...Should i read disinterest based upon the above???
Just lost as to how when it works out or not you know??? How long does take???
