Well, weird thing happened lst night. I went to pick up the kids and I brought them all some free t-shirts I got from work, including one for her. Then out of the blue, she started bawling??? I quickly brought her into the other room closed the door and asked her what was the matter. She said when you drop the kids off tonight, do you have some time to talk. I asked her waht was wrong. I said are you sick and she said I don't know. I gave her a hug and told her to hug back as hard as she wanted and she did.

Later, I brought the kids home and it took forever for us to get them settled into bed so we could talk. Well, as we waited, I sat on the couch and I put my arms around her and she leaned back on me and we watched tv!!!

Once the kids were settled, she proceeded to spill so many things about what had happened to her over the past year and how did I know that this neighbor next door was a player, etc. She told me she got sucked in by him and had even seen him as recently as Jan. 1...Well, needless to say, the issue became a callback last week from her doctor, for an exam she had had. Obviously, that freaked her out and she had noone to talk to and she had talked to him and he, she felt was blaming her if there was anything wrong with her and basically cya'ing for himself. He told her he loved her and that he had betrayed her, etc. Well, I get to hear all this and to my surprise, as I had told her earlier when I gave her an immunity card I had made, that I would listen and not pass judgement...Wo, was that hard...I just listened and gave no advice...I wanted to; but I said I wouldn't. She told me how she had screwed up her life with this and knew that what she was doing was wrong; but that he was good at sucking her in and was afraid she might get sucked in again after this is over????

So, I told her I would go with her to the exam if she wanted me to. We agreed that she would pick me up at work this mornong so I could go with her. All I told her last night was that I was there for her and that we would work through this issue together regardless of whether it was good or bad news. Well, I got in the car and gave her a wquick peck on the cheek and we headed off to the doctors. Just idle chit chat about stuff and the kids...

We go to the doctors and I grabbed her hand and we walked in hand in hand. Got in there and they brought us to the exam room and she was asked to take off her jeans and underwear. I figured at this point she might ask me to leave for a sec; but she didn't and basically stripped down there in front of me. (Sorry, but for me that was the best I got from her in a 1-1/2yrs!!! ) Well, we waited there and I reiterated how I was there for her and we would work together to solve this. I looked outside and said it was a nice sunny day and you never know???? lol

Well, the doctor came in and asked "So, you called me? Is everything okay?" She said yes, your office called me...Well, in the end, it was all a mistake...But , I think she learned something form this and I believe that God had a part in this and this happened for a reason...Not sure why yet, but it will all eventually play out.

Well, she got dressed and we left the office. I said again, see it's a beautiful sunny day outside as we walked out holding hands. I told her lets grab lunch wherever you want, my treat. So, we went to lunch again I walked in holding her hand...(Yes, I initiated; but she never pulled it back) We ate lunch just chatted idlely about stuff her family, etc. Tells me how her parents will not watch the kids if they know she is going out somewhere other than to a friends house...I know they think she is messed up; but they are controlling her!!!. Anyway, towardsthe end of lunch, her cell phone rings and she knows it is this guy. She tells me I am just going to tell him now is not a good time and make him sweat a bit. He must ahve said something and she kept telling him now is not a good time and "You weren't there for me"...You can call later...She gets off the phone and tells me that he leaves work right about now and that she knows he won't be able to call till Monday unless he wants to get caught...I said I hope you know that today went well and I am glad; but it could have gone different. She tells me I know that and this is not done? I say huh? She says oh it's done for him and I (Well, that remains to be seen...he uses the I love you crap, so who knows how weak she is...For her sake hopefully not). I said, you should ahve just let me answer the phone. She said, "Oh, no I am saving that one"

Well, I pay the bill and we go to the car again at my initiative, holding hands. We gat in the car and she drives me back to work. Holding her hand on the drive back. We pull up to work and I said stop here,; because people that her sister and brother-in-law know that work with me are in the cafe. She does and I lean over give her a peck on the cheek and quick hug; but she is a little standoffish...I htink she was afraid that someone would see her. Well, I have the kids this weekend and I said I was thinking of taking the kids to see Hoodwinked, would you like to go with us? She said you go with them, I need some time by myself. I was disappointed; but I let it go. I said okay, maybe we can hook up again soon. She nods. She says thanks!!! I get out of the car and she drives off.

Man this is so hard to interpret what the hell is going on or is going to happen....I am so afraid to get hurt; but need to do this. Just a lot of obstacles in the way...Her feelings for the other guy, her parents, etc.