Well, I kind of screwed up tonight. When I dropped the kids off, I was helping my daughter figure out her homework and didn't realize that my X's mom was coming over because she was headed out. Stupid me said jokingly, I thought you couldn't go out on a school night...
We taloked a little bit and *I mentioned the concert one last time and she said again "You know I shouldn't go" I said why...she finally responded with "It would be like a date and I am not ready to date anyone." She started to hold back tears. I asked her what was the matter and she said "Nothing"...getting composure and then starting to get emotional again??? I said come here and I gave her a hug and told her that I care what happens to her.
As I was leaving I told her that I didn't care what other family members thought and that this was just about what the 2 of us thought...She still held back tears and said "I'm fine". I told her that I am there for her if she needed to talk and that I hold nothing against her for what has happened between us. She replied "I appreciate that". I then walked out the door and headed home.
I feel bad that I pushed and will tell her on Thursday when I get the kids that I didn't mean to push at her and that I just wanted to be there for her if she needed me.
I wish I knew what was going on in her head. IF it is over for us or if she is just confused. Anyway, I did hold back from telling I loved her....Wanted to; but didn't...
THis is real hard.
Just_Me, I feel like I am going through what you di and am just not sure how it will go for me or how to stay neutral right now. I just hope I didn't mess things up by my actions tonight!!! :-(
