Well, last 2 days have been kind of a bummer. I keep driving to work and thinking that I should just move this way, so that I am closer to my kids. (BTW, she moved I didn't) She also seems to be going back to being standoffish and that kind of sucks. Part of me just wants to tell her off for what I am going through and the other just keeps it bottled up inside, as what purpose will it serve to do so???
Hey, I don't know what is up with her. Last week she goes with us. This week we have a doctors appointment for our son who is having problems. Ask her if she wants to go to lunch with son. Get a no
As far as concert, pretty much got a no..."I can't go, it's a school night...You know why I shouldn't go" Actually, no I don't!!! Is it because she never cared for me, doesn't care for me, is confused or is guilty about what she has done since we have been apart or even before??? All I was looking for was someone to go to this concert who would enjoy it as much as I would. Don't want to go alone. I honestly asked her because noone else I know, hang with enjoys Billy Joel...My friends are all into country.
Just wish I knew what is going on with her. I know there would be ups and downs; but not sure what all this means
I know, I try and concentrate on me and I still keep improving...just waiting for some sort of break here...Not so much with her...just with anything. I mean I miss my kids and interacting with them. Last week was nice to be able to be with them; but I see that as short term
It's just hard; because I had been married for 11 yrs and now I am single and out there by myself, not knowing where things are going for me. I just want to enjoy life with someone again. Plus, my laptop drive died and it's going to cost me $300 (It's my other lifeline to the world!!! lol)
I know from talking to my X that it is not totally true; but I feel like everything keeps falling her way. I mean, I am not an unfit father and I feel like I have to choose between having a life and being there for my kids. She gets to do both, as she has them daily. I get to be the babysitter for her. I would glady give up my life to have them there daily...always would have.
