Man, last night was hard...I went to see my stepson do a hip hop dance in a show and I planned on going and sitting down by myself...When I got there I went to the bathroom and when I came out, I ran smack dab into my stepson, my daughter and X-MIL...My X was parking the car...Anyway, I said hi to them and wished my stepson good luck...
I then went in to the auditorium and found a seat...A bit later they came in and my X-MIL asked if the seats were taken near me...I said no; but that the seats wern't that great and that some up higher were better...So, I said to my X is it ok to sit with my daughter...She said that's fine; but seemed bugged either by me doing that or something else.
Anyway, I spent the whole show sitting with my daughter...trying and succeeding at having minimal contact with my X...I was trying to give her her space...I honestly wanted to just sit with my daughter and also not give impression I was doing it because of her, which I wasn't...
She seemed more distant last night...We had contact the day before and things went ok...It's just that rollercoaster...I am pursuing other things too, like this woman who approached me on one of those internet sites...
I know my X is still in contact with this OM and that is not my business; but I have a hard time with wanting to see my kids in sitchs like that; but not want to look like I am doing it because of her. It's hard. I just don't want her to think I am pursuing her; but before this I felt like I was getting, by her actions, the opportunity to see my kids a bit more and interact with her too...I just feel like she is about to lash back and I don't want to see that happen...From just a getting along point, it has been better and I at least don't want to see that go backwards...
