Quote: I know this is not as gripping a read as my former HoneypotTrainWrecks but what can I say.
You couldn't be more wrong! I wish there was more of this, here. Here's hoping you don't need this place anymore, but stick around anyway, just for grins. Lucky bastardette!
All Smiles for ya, HP! I think we are on parallel tracks.
What amazes me is how rapidly the change here occurred, and yes, we too are doing things that haven't happened since we were newlyweds, and even some things we've never done. Life is good, and full of hope in the GGB household as well. MrsGGB and I are also getting psyched to do the body for lilfe challenge. And to think I was ready to throw it all away a bit over a year ago.
I'm glad to hear things are going so well for you Honeypot. Lots of negativity on the board as of late (including my own, drats) so it is refreshing to read. Keep it up! LFL
Quote: --------------------------------------------------- A couple of times I even felt overwhelmed by the intensity of his desire!! Who knew. Well, I believe NOPkins knew but damned if I was going to believe him. lol ---------------------------------------------------
I'm glad to see the high drive side of your husband finally shining through.
Do expect that both of you will still skin your knees a few times. What's important is getting back up on the bike and going at it again.
I'm very proud of you HoneyPot.
All the best, -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
Quote: I'm glad to see the high drive side of your husband finally shining through.
Me too. I asked him last night if his hormones had changed because he seemed like such a different person and he said, Seriously there must have been some kind of change--I am totally different!
The knee skinnage will not faze me. I am an old pro, by now, at getting back up on the bike. I started this thread on Nov 19th and I don't think there's been any rough spots since then, though I'm too lazy to look back and verify that. My point is that six weeks is a long time for us to have blissed out peace and a good SL. I'm sure this is a record. Things just feel differently in our home, I've finally relaxed, and things are just getting better and better.
NOP, can I confess something to you? Many times you have written about how you look back and wish you had done this or that differently and I would be snorting out here in cyberland thinking, Oh yeah, you're just saying that cause your wife reads this board too. Well now, I'm feeling that very intently. I keep looking back lately at all of the ways that I pushed him away from me and I feel a deep sense of regret about it. So I hereby apologize for any eye rolls or impatient disbelief that I may have displayed at reading those words.
Anyway, thanks for the kind words that all of you wrote to me. As my D3 used to say, I muches muches love you!
I just realized that my last post could be taken to mean that I didn't really believe that NOP contributed to his marital problems. That was not what I meant.
I suppose I meant that, up until now, I never really believed that a true boner fide HD person would ever look back and think that anything justified being sexually rejected. I think I sorta figured that it was something that you just moved on from, rather than really believing you caused it somehow.
While it's not something that I 'caused', it is something that I contributed to, without a doubt. Folks, I cannot explain why I spent many years of my marriage subtly undermining my H's masculinity. What is it about me that I felt compelled to do this? I don't know, but I have learned my lesson. It's been about 4 years since I stopped all that behavior and it's taken that time to build him up again. Just as it took approximately that long to tear him down. WHY did I do it, I just don't know. Fear of intimacy, fear of abandonment, anger at his religious fervor, self amusement, FOO fi fo fum, I don't know! All of the above probably.
Anyway, I wanted to clarify that last statement both because MrsN is a personal friend of mine and also she could take me down to chinatown, youknowwhatI'msayin.
Hope is contagious. 
