Honey... You and H really have it together! It is really amazing, considering the detachment you felt just a short while ago, and sends a message of hope here on the BB.
I'm thinking you should try to keep the momentum going--- I know breaks in our schedule really seem to set us back. H and I also had a few fluky high frequency weeks but neither of us was ready to discuss it and capitalize on it.
H and I are doing good after last Sat's weirdo nite; our next scheduled nite was Wed. which went off pretty much hitchless. Here is the thing ( okay, so I am hijacking here)...H is very good about committing to the schedule...even " reminded" me about it in the morning. Initiation is never an issue as he does make the first move ( on Wed he even lit a candle and wanted brownie points for being romantic). Those are the good points. The hard part is that it does take him awhile to get hard, or it comes and goes. And while he is a more " go with the flow" type person, I start to feel rejected inside, like I am not desirable. He will do some foreplay on me and I will notice nothing's happening for him. The good news is that he seems to be comfortable with his body at this point, feeling confident he will get there, and on Sat, when he felt shut down, he was very matter of fact about it and told me he'll come around later. He is sensitive to pressure in many areas of his life and knows this about himself. But all the problems from the past come to haunt me...his rejection and hostility toward me when I first tried to broach the intimacy issue come into play ( although he is anything but hostile now...he is very cooperative)and I feel undesirable. This is a long winded way of saying I am hung up on the desirability issue...HELP!
Anyway...congrats on your wonderful week! Now you have freed up energy to get into Dr. Honeypot mode with us on the board...get to work! xo
