I just had the sexual blah's. I mean, if you enforce your own schedule indefinitely on anything, I'm guessing it will lose its luster to the other person. I feel alive again. It FEELS like a physical difference, but the difference is mental too. I've been listened to and..gasp..he acted on my requests!
He had to really shore himself up and make the commitment verbally and yet it went off without a hitch and I have a feeling that he's jazzed about it, too. We'll see.
Being on his schedule indefinitely sucked the pizzazz out of me. The desire to be hot, flirt. Why? was the common refrain in my mind.
NOP told me a long time ago to make sure that whatever schedule we chose worked for ME too and that was wise advice. His has not been workin for me and I did not know the extent to which it had not been working til we tried my way. I feel completely different and I'd like it to be like this with a greater frequency than a handful of times per year.
Thanks for the commiseration; I'm off to clean. (wanna join me? )
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