If he were in a relationship with someone else, chances are, being who he is, he'd pretty much behave the same way as he has with you throughout your life together.

And every time I started to get a jealous thought in my little pea brain, I would make myself remember this. You are right and I know it. Too bad the next person that gets involved with him won't know it.

even if you were to find ways to cope with your circumstances that made it "easier" on you, why would you want to be in a relationship with this kind of man?

I don't. Somedays I have hope that things will 'get better', but for the most part the reason I am here is independent of my R with H.

A PFA or Protection From Abuse order is an order from a judge that declares that he shall be arrested if he comes within such and such distance of you.

Most definitely if anything of that nature ever occurs again. I am not tolerating that again.

Actually it wasn't too bad for him to have a moment with S5, but I don't see why you had to carry the bag.

Ah, let me clarify. H and the kids had already exchanged hugs and kisses and in fact, gifts. They even sat down on the floor and opened their gifts. So, H already had many moments with the kids. On the way to baggage claim is when I needed to carry his duffel bag so that he could put S5 on his shoulders. The strap was really long and the stupid thing kept hitting me in the back of the legs...all the while I was also carrying D2. Whatever, I'm over it.

In fact, not only am I over it, but I'm on to the next bigger and better thing, as my H abandoned me at the mall tonight. I'm too tired to go on about it tonight, just suffice it to say it was a disagreement about the holiday pictures for the kids. Ugh. I'll post more tomorrow, I'm not trying to be cryptic.

Thanks all.



"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."

- Nathaniel Hawthorne