Right now your H's focus seems to be on punishing you. Unless he moves past that, there's not much to be done except live your own life is there?
That depends on whether I take the "whatever it takes to salvage my M" approach or the "screw it, he'll never forgive me so I'm going to live my life approach". This approach has to be decided in advance of doing certain things that I know will set him off, like going to NY with my sister.
I'm hanging in there....I was just thinking that I seem to get this way every time H is supposed to come home. Does it seem that way to you? Maybe things will be ok once he gets home, maybe the anticipation of him coming back into our daily lives is worse than the actual return. I put my rings back on today. I was sort of tempted not to. Then I came to my senses. I need to stay true to myself, not participate in the games H plays. So, that's that.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
