Thank You Burgbud, for seeing through to the truth.
Yes, I am hurting. Yes, I am looking to regain my dignity and self-respect. And yes, I am looking to finally get my feet back upon solid ground. And Yes. I still want my wife and family. Now more than ever.
I am just no longer willing to compromise my values or lower my standards for myself in order to achieve it.
I view this as a test for myself. At the beginning of that now-dead relationship with my old WAW who I will now refer to as my new friend R, I once compromised my loosely-defined values in order to experience pleasure with her. That soon lead to tremendous pain, suffering and instability in our lives.
Now, older, wiser, stronger, I have the opportunity to finally stand up for the things that I truly believe in. In short, to see what I am made of and dwell in the truth of my own happiness, rather than search for it anywhere or with anyone outside myself.
Yours is an EXCELLENT question. Now I need to take some time to think about giving your question the full attention it deserves, and will also add more to this thread later.
