I was just speaking to a friend of mine who knows our sitch. Mabye my wife is happy and im just reading too much into everything? Mabye im just being insecure and mabye IM the one whos not happy or getting the love I need and its starting to bother me? Just talked to my wife and she said she's sensed something wrong with me for the last couple of weeks and I told her its just work. She said she wishes id talk to her about it instead of holding it in cause shes felt the tention and thought it was because of her, witch it really is im just not prepared to share with her how insecure ive become about things lately. She told me to go ahead and go to councelling on my own tonight instead of togeather so I can talk about things. She also says she think ive been trying to do to much for her and the kids and missing too much work to do things she can take care of since she's the stay at home mom. She thinks I need to spend more time on myself and stop trying to be the perfect husband/father as its just too much pressure to put on myself, funny I never thought she saw things that way and mabye shes right? Mabye I need to just ease up and be myself instead of allways trying to act happy even when im not? So confused and really need to get things worked out in my head to regroup and refresh my veiw of things.
