Sunday H turned up to take us all out for Sunday lunch.Now, this may not seem like much to most people but in the 14 or so years we have been married we have never been out to Sunday Lunch. In fact we have only eaten out together a handfull of times. (if that) It is not that we can't afford it, just that .. erm, dunno why just something we've never done. H really enjoyed it, so did the boys and they would all love to do it again.
In the afternoon we went to town and then to H flat to take his shopping over and stop off for a drink. It was only the second time I've been there so that was interesting. (could do with a hoover and a tidy up.. NO I didn't offer. )
In the evening I had to take the boys swimming which they enjoyed.
H phoned me at 9pm to remind me that something I wanted to wach on the TV was coming on soon and to thanks me for a lovely day.
He's really trying hard - bless him.
I am thinking some about the anxiety I have written about. The stress and stuff and wondering if it could be occuring when I feel my love tank is running low? For example at the moment my love tank is full to overflow. In this stage I tend to do lots of things to make H happy. He is happy for me to do so and allows me to carry on. It is almost like I get to a stage where I panick and think 'I am doing too much, he isn't doing enough' and I have this huge burst of anxiety and shut down towards him...Just thinking aloud here but don't know if anyone reading can offer any input here?
Worth thinking about - I shall have to try to keep an eye on the guage to see if I can do stuff to prevent the love tank becoming too low and prevent this situation occuring.
NO I didn't offer. )
