Thanks for your reply Betsey. Hope you got to the post office in time
OK, I get what you are saying. I agree. I did actually have a bit of a lightbulb moment today when i thought to myself..instead of saying. I hate it when you go to the pub on your way to see the boys etc etc nag nag nag..I could say when he does come over early, something like I really appreciate it when you come here early as it means I can get on and do my jobs and we can all spend time together. I will try to work on that. hard to break the habits of a lifetime though
I do like your thoughts on expressing how I am feeling. I must do that more. I did tell H a while back that I do feel anxious about the R at times and thats what makes me shut down and I promised I would tell him when I felt like that. As you would say, I've not been very honset with him about my feelings. I need to be. He's not a person who would laugh or scoff at me. There's no reason I can't be honest with him. I guess my difficulty comes from my upbringing. I don't remember anyone kissing, hugging or saying ILY when I was a child.
Anyway, I am feeling good about things at the moment. He has taken the boys out for a couple of hours to do boy stuff... They'll be back expecting Pizza's soon so I had better get on with things.
Thankyou for checking in on me Betsey, it means a lot. Take care, Pink.
