I have decided to move to the piecing forum in a bid to remind myself of my ultimate goal; to piece my marriage back together.

I am a WAW, married for 14 years 2 sons aged 9. My H and I are currently separated.

Initially when H left I felt a huge surge of relief and was on quite a high; but over the monthes I have gradually 'come down' and realised that I do still care for him, do still love him but he has behaviour that is difficult to live with and I have problems asserting what I want. I find it difficult to express my feelings towards him other than anger and resentment!

So anyway, over the monthes my feelings towards him have softened and we have recently managed to get quite close to one another, Infact on my other thread I actually wrote that I feel more for him than I ever remember doing..infatuated was the work I used.


However, I don't know whether he has felt this too and it has scared him but the last week has been just awful. He has spent more time in the pub than I have ever known him doing, he has turned up late for dinner (3 hours late!!) He has not been staying around as long as he used to making lame excuses to 'get away' like he has housework to do.. This is a man who doesn't even own or know how to use a vacume LOL So I'm not sure what is going on. All I know is that this last week has seemed like a major rollar coaster ride and I don't like it. I do suffer from depression from time to time. I do a good job of controlling it with diet and exercise, PMA whever possible and avoiding stress so as you can immagine this past week has worried me. If he is testing me, playing games I can do without it...
I need to keep my moods on an even keel.

So anyway, this place is just going to be a place whereI can record for future refence what is going on with my feelings and my R. To make plans and share thoughts with anyone who cares to comment.

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