Lou, bless your heart. You are a responsible person, who has had (and continues to have) a great deal of responsibility placed on him. That can get awfully wearying.
I grew up poor. Devastatingly, not sure where our next meal was coming from - poor.
It makes you fearful.
And I don't know that you ever totally get past that fear, because it only takes a couple of bad things happening, to find yourself smack-dab in that same sort of financial poverty.
I don't know that there is enough money in the world or enough food in my cupboards to fully take away that fearful void that gnaws just beneath my consciousness.
Do you think it is fear that powers your response in this situation?
