Taking him to the store and getting her a card for him to sign and a present sounds perfect. Interestingly, even tho she has the right to spend her BDay with him, she's opting out. Without judging her, there's no one else I'd rather spend my BDay with than him.
Well folks, I've decided to take the last big plunge. I'm moving over to the Surviving the Big D forum. I've tried. Lord knows I've tried. Along the long painful path from Newcomers to Separated to D'd but not Done, I've given it a good try. And it hasn't happened. Even tho I'm still open to reconciliation, I realize that life is oh so very short, and my God intends for me to use His gifts, not waste them on someone who merely rejects out of hand.
This is hard. I almost teared up while walking around a drugstore last night thinking about this silly move in cyberspace. An odd mixture of sadness, guilt, fear, and resignation. Sadness about the finality of loss, guilt about my "quitting", fear about the unknown, and resignation to this reality. I did not want this to be. But if there is anything I've learned over the past 14+ months, it is that I'm not in control. Bad things can happen, people can choose to leave me, yet despite the storms that come my way, I also have learned that I can get back up, dust myself off, and keep movin on toward my goals and dreams. I need this, and S6 needs me to do this as well.
May God bless each and every one of you, and your families, for all of the love and support you've given me throughout this painful journey, and may He send you the grace to strengthen you as you continue to walk your journeys as He intends. I owe you so much, and the best I can do in return is to try my best to pass it on. I wish each of you happiness and success, in whatever form that takes.
Know that I'll be back to check on you, and I hope to see you on my new thread: Movin' on Up!
