Good - glad that things feel clearer for you. Just don't be suprised if you experience a kind of post D "hangover" of all types of strange feelings for the next 6 mos to 1 yr. I think I experienced that most strongly for about 6 months. The strangest things would bring up feelings about the M - never love but confusion, hate (for me and him), feelings of failure, questions, doubts, the occasional unexpected good memories, guilt, relief etc... I realize that it is different for everyone but that M had been dead for about seven of its 10 years and even still the D was just plain weird.
