--Re-read Leviticus 29:11. I will transcribe it here for you to save you the effort:
"I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to hurt you. Plans to give you hope and a future."
My concentration lately has been suffering. Up all night due to work as well as further a-has about role in R demise.
I meant to say "Jeremiah, 29:11."
Hearing this PA insight from the women's perspectives/feelings here has made me further realize the fragility of fidelity when stressors ongoing in R. Rehashing: High EC in R but very low PC in R and some arguments when received "not in love with you", "no spark anymore", etc. lines after x trips socializing, drinking, etc. with D M/F "new friends" at hotel conferences. X even related to me how one D M was laughing how many Fs with wedding rings suddenly have amnesia about their Ms during same. Sigh. Relaying that a positive. Openness? Or Deflection? And supposed to be business talk. Obviously lot more going on.
After bomb I asked earnestly/directly if there was "spark" with OM, any OM? Knowing will make my life MUCH easier in terms of moving on (didn't say this latter 'moving on' part). Said absolute NO. Kept pressing earnestly. Still NO followed by "What do you want me to do? Lie to you?" Uh, no, but you lied before. Even Michelle says forget it, you won't get a straight answer if you ask.
Sigh. First PA defended via lies until discovery. Frame of reference destroyed. Same problem as Blackfoot. Cusp of children. Can I have next 40 years of doubt? DBing (LRT) by default. Saw remorse over PA but not a mind-reader as to level. Argh! Rubbing temples. Need to reconcile own feelings about trust...
-Stigmata-
The difference between a warrior and an ordinary man is the warrior views everything as a challenge; the ordinary man views everything as either a blessing or a curse.
-Yaqui shaman Don Juan-
...and that holds 2x true for nice guy wussies, DJ
