Thought I would stop in and give a quick update. The update is.........nothing much is new. Ex is still abusing prescription drugs, depressed more than ever and continues to tell me he loves me and wants to get married again......when he gets sober which will be very soon. I'm not holding my breath!
I'm not angry about it, and I don't get sad about it anymore either. It is what it is. I have so much going on in my personal life and career that I don't have much time to think about ex anymore. He is stuck, and when he is miserable enough, he will do what he needs to do.
I did go about one month without talking to him--this seemed to make him even more depressed and needy towards me. I probably talk to him once every two weeks now because of things we need from each other. We have so many business, family and friend connections that it is hard to go too long without talking to him. I need his friend to help me with this or his sister to help me with that. It is hard to just stop talking all together!
Right now, we treat each other like really good friends with a long history together. I NEVER talk about us anymore. In my mind, we are pretty much finished. This thinking has helped me move forward. It took me a long time to be OK with thinking like this.
But, life keeps me moving. I am in a happy and peaceful place right now. Me being at peace has nothing to do with what is happening in my life--my life is more hectic and stressful than ever. I learned so much the past 2.5 years and now I am really good at handling stress and dissappointments. Who would have known! That is the best thing that I got out DBing and out of my recovery. Slowly, I have learned how to deal with life and people. I am so happy for that!
I will let you guys know if there is anything new. I still read these boards, but I just don't have time to post lately. Take care everyone! I hope you all are doing well.
