Yes, JDD, I am doing fine. Thanks so much for checking in on me.
I've been kind of paranoid about ex lately. I logged onto my email account last week and the pass code wouldn't work. When I went to change the pass code, the question I had to answer to change the pass code was something ex would have known. I could have just been typing the pass code wrong, but I will never know. I panicked and quickly changed the pass code to something new wondering what he could have seen. Knowing me, I was probably just typing in the pass code wrong. I kind of laid low on these boards because of that. If ex would have gotten into my email account, he would have found this website and known my screen name. I think I might be paranoid though. Ex never snooped during our divorce, but if he was worried about losing me, he could easily be the type to snoop. Who knows??????????
On the 15th, ex sent me an email. Then this Saturday on the 25th, I received a small package in the mail from him. It was a card saying he loved me more than I could ever know and a copy of a newspaper article that he knew I would be interested in reading. It was very short, very brief but very sweet.
I am just trying to stay focused on my own life and not get too wrapped up in his world. I sent him an email thanking him for the card. Keeping focus on my own life is the best thing for me right now. His world is so complicated that getting drawn back into his problems will only set me back. If he was sober, it would be another story. Knowing this keeps me from contacting him if I get sad or lonely.
Just taking things day by day right now and trying to better myself.
