Thanks for your concerns Hope, Joa and those of you reading. Hope, Joa has a good idea about the pink phone with the sparkles. My friend going through a divorce actually got a pink phone just like this. That is funny that Joa mentioned that. She is right!
I am actually doing good regarding ex. I have accepted that I won't be able to talk to him in the evenings and am OK each night that I go to bed with no phone call. I miss him, but know in my heart that I am doing the right thing. It is funny because in the past when I tried to just cut off ex, it never felt right. Now the time is right--I just know it.
During our last conversation, ex had briefly mentioned that he wanted to send me an email. I responded with I'll send him one too but it may take awhile because I am busy. I am positive that I told him it may take awhile because I am busy. He still hasn't emailed me and then I started to worry maybe he is waiting for me to email him first. I was going to email him first and now I realize that I shouldn't. First, I don't want communication to go back to what it was. Second, ex needs to reach out to me first this time. I bet he is just testing me too. Also, he could simply be too busy to have time to email. It will be good for him to email once some time has passed also. I made my decision--I will not email him until he emails me first. This codependency stuff will play tricks with your mind if you aren't prepared.
Personally, I have not been doing what I have planned. I planned to get started on a strict diet and work-out schedule. I haven't done zilch. I can't seem to get motivated. I do just enough on my to-do list to get by each day and this is not good. I have got to make the most of this time period and get busy!!!!!!
