Quote: I went to the online dating website and punched in the women in my area to see the competition--yuck. I do not want to be grouped with them.
You are a diamond among coal, Sam. Hold onto that belief. Online dating is just a tool, not the tool.
Besides you don't need a man or a M or an R. You've proven that over the years when dealing with your H. Those things'd just be nice to have, right? In my sitch, my lack of desire was a message to myself that I wasn't ready. It also was a product of my lack of "neediness" that came about once I learned how to truly feed myself.
IMHO, taking the adult route is best. An in-person convo explaining the need to break up. Not softened with a "for now" cause that leaves you trapped in his addiction-created limbo, but a clean break, if that's what you decide to do.
