Thankyou to everyone who posted for me. I am feeling really low today because a lot of bad things have happened all at once - even my laptop computer with my whole life of work on it has crashed on me. Hairdog you know me better than that. I have never hit her or abused her in any way - argued certainly but she gives as good as she gets. NOP, I knew she didn't fancy me before the wedding but my love for her was so overwhelming that I had no doubt we'd get it back because she had so many worries at the time such as her dad being ill. The wedding night rejection was a serious blow that I have never really got over. The only relationship she had before me was for about 18 months and was with my best friend. I had fancied her for some time and when they split up I was delighted when she showed an interest in me. She told me that he told her that she was "no good in bed" - a warning I should have paid more attention to - but I was very inexperienced and didn't really know what sex was about anyway. When we started ML I didn't think she was "no good" at first anyway. I fell for her so completely that I asked her to marry me after only three weeks and she accepted (we didn't get formally engaged for another 2 years though). I feel like I have the most wonderful woman in the world who I still love just as much as I did then and although she is right here living with me I don't really have her at all. I don't know what the American word for "Fancy" is but here it means that you "Have the Hots". I have been thinking about it and I remember having a girl friend who really had the hots for me but I felt nothing for her. She would have done anything for me I'm sure but when W came onto the scene I just dumped her without any regret. It kills me to think that W could not fancy me like that. SD
