I don’t know what to say, but I do wish you well. Your sitch is so similar to mine and my thoughts so similar to the ones you’ve expressed in this thread. So much of what you’ve said has rung true for my R. The consummating of the M three days later (I got it in then, but the whole scene was so miserable that we never completed the act. That took eleven years.). The same unrewarding mercy sex, just more of it. The same feeling that all of our “progress” has been nothing more than self-delusion. IOW, I can identify with you man. I can’t offer anything you don’t already know, but I do understand. And I wish you the best – whatever happens.
