Thanks Chrissy, I appreciate it. I am quite well known to many on this forum and am generally thought to have been a "Success" whatever that is. My sitch goes right back to my wedding night nearly 25 years ago when I realised I had married someone who did not love me. I remember lying in the bridal suite bed thinking "What have I done". We had an argument about my pajamas and did not consumate our marriage until the third night - and even that was after a lot of "Pressure" from me. It set the scene for the following years - no obvious signs of love from her and mercy sex every few months. Since I joined this board early last year I put a lot of work into changing myself and my attitude and things seemed to be improving but it was all in my head really. She was going through the motions to keep me quiet and last night after I put her under a little bit of the dreaded "Pressure" she just claimed that she has a right to live the [celibate] way she wants to live. I'm tired of giving everything I've got and getting pushed away - that just isn't how a loving relationship should be in my book. She seems to think it is perfectly reasonable to live as platonic companions. SD
