I don't think your line of thinking is out of line at all. i believe most all of us go through the ups and downs for quite a while. Wanting it, not wanting it, somedays not really sure what you want. I read a post somewhere here a few days ago about not wanting to start a relationship with someone else because of the "what ifs ". But if you do start a new relationship and find everything you want the "what ifs" don't matter any more. It's their tough luck. I haven't called or communicated with XW since a few days before xmas. I was cordial to her and bought her some chocolates and gave her a xmas card and her only response was "what's this for ?" Duh !!!! So I am trying to stick to my guns and having no contact. I'm tired of being the Mr nicey nicey guy all the time. Damn it I'm worth having and if she wants me let her come and get me if not C ya later. I'm not getting any younger. I guess we all reach this point sooner or later. Although it's not firmly embedded in my psyche yet, it will be in a matter of a short time.
Hang in their Jay. I'm working and taking care of my kids and my home. Doesn't leave time for much else anyway. Patience is the most difficult lesson life has to teach.
Hang in there brother ! Dave A
You vote with your feet. Divorce final 12/24/2004 I Give Up !
