You poor man. How do you cope? It's been about 5 weeks for me and that feels like forever, and prior to that I've only had it like 3 or 4 times in about 6 months.
I'm sure that's where some of my mood swings come from, definitely where some of the tearfulness comes from. I haven't had sex so I feel ugly. Feeling ugly makes me feel miserable so I'm in tears, being in tears spirals to depression, which then means I start eating junk food, not socialising as much etc etc. This gives me spots because I'm eating too much rubbish and further emphasizes the whole 'ugly' feeling.
I can't sleep at night because I haven't had sex so the whole no sex thing becomes like an obsession where I'm thinking about it about 15 hours out of every 24. I start feeling angry, and snapping at my kids and my friends and especially my X because I've got so much suppressed energy and nowhere to disperse it.
My writing suffers because I can't concentrate, so I drink more coffee to help me focus and this ends up bringing on headaches.
What I do manage to write becomes more and more pornographic to compensate for the fact that I'm not getting any in real life. I have written more erotic literature in the last 4 years than I've ever written in my life.
When I manage to get to sleep, I either have extremely violent nightmares or extremely sexual ones, and sometimes both, then I wake up feeling all anti-climaxed because it wasn't real.
Everywhere I look, there are couples, in the supermarket, in the street, kissing at the bus stop, plastered all over advertising billboards, in magazines etc etc. I turn on the TV and there's this couple kissing in the kitchen. They end up rolling into the living room, screaming and moaning etc etc while I'm sat there with a fixed grin on my face, thinking 'I USED to do that.' USED to being the operative words.
I feel like my whole life is over because I don't have sex.
So if anyone knows a cure - some ideas about how I can be ND, that would be great. I need a herbal remedy or something that makes it so I'm just not interested in sex, because in my situation I can't have any anyway.
Sorry for the discussion hi-jack, but at least it's proof that not all women are feminist, men-hating, sex loathing, lesbians.
