I'm not feminist (I actually think it's a load of balls ), and I'm not a penis hater either. In fact, I quite like them (except for the really small ones, which is like trying to pick a lock with a wet herring) - it's just that all broken marriages seem to be blamed on women.

I agree, I am not ready for another relationship. I would like one because I want human company, and I haven't had sex in bloody forever, but I'm a mess, and I don't reckon any man would touch me when I'm this tearful anyway.

Bit of a vicious circle. I'm depressed because I'm single and I'm single because I'm depressed.

I haven't a clue how to get rid of 'the baggage' as you put it, without getting rid of the children. If they're in my life, he's in my life. End of story.

I know. Given your line of work, you could cut him up into little pieces, put him in a suitcase and throw it in the river. I've seen that done on films. You could do it professionally

Ignore my insane ramblings. I am really down today. I just tried to send jdd an email and my computer switched off.

Jo.