Michael, your instinct is quite natural...flight or flight...I've been around horses a bit too much perhaps...but it is also considered a human instinct...instead of stepping back and gaining a perspective on the situation we so quickly react and truly it is normal.
But if you step back, look at the big picture and do some research, reading, visiting the BB you will find such a wealth of information that will guide you...this will be the rollercoaster ride of your life, just ask any of us here we've been riding it for a bit some of us just months and some for a couple of years from what I have read.
Just take it slow...as my DB coach told me, time is your friend, you must learn patience...
