I have been following on the boards, but feel that I am at a loss of what to do and what to say. Things are doing better in general with W. Everything except S has been improving. W will sit and talk with me, call me, but she doesn't want to make herself available for S. Honestly, I'm getting to the point, I really don't particularly care except for it's physical effects. My biggest drive was to have the closeness in our relationship, if all she can derive from it is a big need for S, after these many years if she doesn't know better she never will and I am getting tired of alway being the one "offering the hand".
I am 100% committed to marriage and most likely will never leave, but if this is the path she choses, that is one sad existance. Before I got married I commited to my self that my kids would never come from a D home. From this I have learned I cannot guarentee that. I can however guarentee that it will not be initiated by me.
Today, I started looking at a sample from a book by Hafen. It had a lot to do with M and it's importance to society. Especially in reference to the Proclamation. It looks like it could be some deep reading. I think if I order that and pick up Sex Starved Marriage I have my reading list full till after the primaries. The C mags seem to be continuing to focus on M and family quite a bit, they have been a real blessing to me.
Good luck on your exams next week. I do miss college days. Don't know if I would want to go after my Master at this stage in the game, maybe when things are a little more secure. If it all goes south it might be a nice change of pace. A lot of people I knew at college had taken that path in life after the D. It made a big difference for them.
Well, in general things are OK. I think I just have to give some things more time. D15 is doing well, we are planning her party. Time marches on.
