Well folks I am around, however my ability to lurk the boards has been out of whack with my latest change of work enviroment. However, today there was some improvement in the "access problem" and I'll try to do better. That said, WCW, I will bring you up to speed tomorrow, once I finish the epistle I started. I'll probably CC you BeingMe (or cut and paste).
So here's where I'm at. All though the majority of things are on track, there is a few key issues that tell me things aren't completely right, or that she is committed to the M. Although I suspect WCW you let it get under your saddle, my comments came from the other side of the fence, the one that associates such things as being part of the change for the better. To me it's part of wanting to draw together and work things out, building a close bond. If you put unrealistic conditions and requirements on grounds for these building steps, nothing will materialize that will last and you'll end up back here.
So where am I at. Well I feel that I have done about all I can, changed that which I have interest or ability to change, but have found myself not where I want to be. I find myself in a situation where I just can't sit back and be myself, express myself and not worry about not doing or saying the right thing. W only wears ring, it appears to me, if not wearing could be embarassing. As far as sex, let's just say it's not where it should be and leave it at that.
So, I'm tired, worn out and just back to comfortably numb. I have done all the right things, but can't quite land the fish. For now I am just letting things work out and then after awhile I'll have to make a decission about what to do. When I look to the beginning, yes there has been a great change, but unfinished work is still just that. I'm just tired of being left hanging (in the doggy door).
The next few days I'll try to be more diligent in trying to post. We'll see though, hopefully the office sharing days are over. I apologize for all the "negative waves".
