What to do next?

[BeingMe]

That is so true, Phoenix. I used to be able to talk to my H about anything, but he betrayed that trust, and repeated my words to OW. It's going to be a long time before I can trust him again. A very long time. I still have to force myself to confide in him about anything. I keep thinking he will repeat it to someone else. It's an awful feeling, that I have not yet been able to tell him about. I hold most things inside now, and just vent on the bb, or to very trustworthy friends.