What you have said about choices is quite true. I have found that I am starting to take more of the view of "whatever I do is usually wrong, so I'll do what is right and makes me happy". I do sacrafice for that which I love and appreciate, but no longer at such cost as before. Also my trust of people in general, close and distant is guarded now. When even the person who is suppose to be your main support is no longer trustworthy, you start to question all relationships.

One of the things that I use to love about W was that I could sit and discuss anything with her, it will be awhile before that happens, from both sides of the coin. The funny part is I see her lapsing back into that mode and then kind of catching herself. This happens more often. I guess the question is when will she admit to herself that the best place for us is with each other.

We'll I should call it a night, excuse the ramblings.