What to do next?

[BeingMe]

Phoenix, I won't say that I am numb - more detached, but excited about my own life, with or without H. He has come further along, I think, than your W, but still has some way to go. He is affectionate, but not very communicative. Just recently, we started ML again, which was pretty non-existent for almost a year, and I wonder if it will continue. We will see.

So, numbness is not really a good place to be. As WCW said, it could go on too long, and then you may lose yourself. I think, I have found myself, and refuse to be defined by my H's choices, moods or actions. I will live my life to the best of my God-given abilities, and skills.

Go there, Phoenix! It is a place of peace, of knowing you are living your life, but not excluding your children, or W, and still being passionate about your interests and goals. We shouldn't allow our S's to choose for us - how we should live, feel, act, or be. It is our life too!

Thinking of ya!