I'm sorry to hear you're in such a rut. If you look at my posting, I'm in almost the same place the past 2 weeks.
It feels like stagnation, right? Things had seemed to be getting a bit better, and I think I let off the momentum. I think we both need to GAL, but it doesn't mean you don't still plan things with the kids. Maybe a day or 2 of doing things for you.
I see a lot of kind people with advice on this board, but I don't know if anyone who's pitching in here has successfully come out the other side with a repaired and renewed marriage.
I think we at least have to know that we've truly tried to make things better, and improved ourselves in the process.
Don't let yourself stagnate. Get out there and do something for you, but it doesn't mean you are neglecting the kids or distancing yourself from them.
