Find myself somewhat getting into the comfortably numb stage. Not where I want to be, W seems to still have a twisted view of what would "be best for all". Would love to just move to a whole new environment and try to start fresh, but that's not likely.
The first large GAL I tried to do and I feel in over my head. Sometimes I feel that if I do GAL I will let go of more of my family. That's more or less what W wants. She wants new life but keep the kids. Leaving me on outside.
Latest positives:
Upcoming vacation with family Outside recognition More open discussion (non-R) Improved financial status
Negatives:
Still feel like house butler W seems to be self focused Still feel uncertain in R
