Good to hear from you again. Understand the need to gain some perspective.
I feel like I've made no progress, positive or negative this week, so I haven't posted on my sitch in a few days.
I've been looking back at journal entries from 9 years ago and cannot believe how long I've been struggling with the same situation for so long without a clear approach until now. I do realize the basics of what she's been looking for for so long. She wants me to take more initiative about a number of fronts (like I did before we were married), take care of my health, make sure our kids are taken care of financially if we both should die, as well as not be afraid to talk frankly about R, an initiate such conversations. I've been making great strides on these things lately. I just wish I understood this stuff even 4 years ago!