Yes I've been trying to think what else I could change, or want to change, and I just keep coming up empty. I don't want to become something I'm not, or something I am not proud of, just enjoying and full of life. W seems to be trying to follow her co-workers' style and attitude. The problem I see is that the ones I have met don't seem to have that great of R with their spouses either.
Yes these other women do fun things, but they don't do it with their Hs, just their co-workers. This should put up some red flags. I'll give you more details another time. Today I'm in a don't care mood, we'll see where it goes tonight.
Had a little slide the other day, I stood up to W about something. It kind of lit her up, gave me some insight, however also rebuilt some of my resolve on a few issues. I have no clue or no confidence where this whole thing is going. I have little control and know I cannot control much. So here we are and here I am.
