Well I thought I better pop back up to the surface and see what's going on. I find when I'm not on here I get negative. One thing I have noticed is how W has had a negative pull on me over the years. I use to be a upbeat kind of guy, loved life. Not as much any more. As part of my 180s I am trying to get back to that part of me. I worry if it will drive her away. Of course the question is how do I improve myself without pushing her. You can not change those who do not want to change.
