What to do next?

[BeingMe]

Hi Phoenix! We haven't all left. I certainly still check out the forum, and especially your thread. My H and I may be reconciled, but I still wonder if I did the right thing staying in this marriage. Time only will tell, but then I wonder if I should waste too much time on someone I don't trust, so it seems it's a neverending thing. Oy! I am giving my marriage this next year, and if I still don't feel I can trust my H, then I think it will be time to make a change.

In the meantime, I get on with my life, improving what I can, seeking out the old me, and trying to have some fun. I think that's all we can do. We shouldn't have to change or struggle to save our marriages (yes, reconnect with the person you were when you first met, and definitely give the other person a chance to come back, but certainly not completely under their rules).

I still don't know what I did to keep my M - I feel that my H hasn't given up the OW (I see no evidence of it, but he is still passive-aggressively manipulative, doesn't discuss our R, and still not interested in ML), so who knows, 'eh! I am just hoping for a time when I know that now is when I leave, or now is when I really stay.

Hope the New Year brings you answers to your questions, and much peace and love in your life.