I appologize for leaving you hanging. Between the lack of certainty/excitement that I had in my desire for my R, I have been fairly busy. The big question is, will my old W change back to the loving girl I married or is she just going to float along at the "this is what you get" mode? Honestly I don't know if I can reconnect with the "new her". Maybe I'm just getting tired of this whole thing and I didn't feel my thread was catching anyone's eyes. All the people I started out with here have moved on, and my trip looks like it's going to go on forever.
Sorry to be such a downer, but that's where I'm at. Like I said before, I didn't think I would make it through this year, but I have. So for today I will look at this as a positive.
