I pretty much ignore the innuendos too – both public and private. I know there won’t be any action to back them up.
Quote: Also ZB your W doesn't have to be an ogress for you to leave her. She doesn't have to "deserve" it. It's not something you do TO her. It's something you do to save your own LIFE.
Lil and others, I know this to be absolutely true. I’ve had many people tell me that I should leave W, that I’m throwing my life away with a woman who will never change and a woman who doesn't deserve me. Believe me, I know. (Well, I'm not sure about the doesn't deserve me part.) As I told you at the beginning of this thread, although the C stopped short of telling me to bail out, he certainly made it abundantly clear that he felt that I would be completely justified in doing so.
I’ve read SuperDave’s moving on thread and it hits so close to home that it’s downright scary. I feel the way he does and I greatly admire him for trying to regain some measure of control and sanity in his life. But I’m just being honest with all of you when I tell you that I can’t/won’t do that. I tried it once before and I felt worse. It’s mostly a religious thing. Look at the stuff I posted to CeMar. I don’t want to argue religion with anybody, but those are my beliefs. They’re not open to negotiation. I believe that marriage is a lifetime commitment. I can try to make it better, but I can’t walk out on it. When I did that, I felt much worse. I felt like a liar. I felt like I had disobeyed God. I felt like I had put my own selfish desires above my obligations to W and to my daughter. I felt like I had violated something that was important to me. I won’t say that I could never change my views on this, but they’re pretty set. Right or wrong, that’s what I’ve experienced and that’s what I believe.
