Hi guys and thank you so much for the continued blessings.
Corri... I want to let you know that as my father starting slipping away more and as the medical staff took charge, I found myself stepping back in a way, as a non-intrusive observer. You helped me see my fear within, and I came forward yesterday with all the internal energy I could muster...a major challenge to me. I have always had a special, psychic connection to my father and he will be feeling that direct love from this point on.
Lou...you asked about my mother...well, she is understandably afraid...she has always been so dependent on my father, but so angry towards him for so long...just angry in general...I never really undrstood what the anger was all about. She is showing kindness in the sweetest of ways...I can almost recollect this image of her when I was a small child...little glimpses that are making me even that much more emotional.
H is being very practical...taking care of the logistics...concerned about my weight loss and making sure to find time for a nourishing meal for us. Encouraged my starting on an antidepressant (Lexapro)...been having a major backslide in terms of my sexuality, but will come back here to address that after this crisis.
Thinking of you all...enjoying reading the posts...hope to hear good things.
