Thank you so much for your kind thoughts in the midst of your own struggles.
I have a suggestion for you, if you are into such things. If not please disregard.
Each morning when you get up, face the sun and let the rays wash over your face. Clear your mind as much as you are able. Even if you can't see or feel the sun, imagine it as if it were a clear day and you can feel these things.
Thank God for the morning, and then ask that the sun fill your body and spirit with its energy. When you feel this, turn around and give it back. Breath its energy in, exhale its energy out. Fill your entire body with it.
When you are with your father, fill yourself with this same feeling of light and love to the point that you feel you will burst from it all. Look to your father and breath in and out the same way you did with the sun.
In this way, he approaches your "sun." Healing always happens from within, not from outside ourselves. For example, it was said that Jesus was a great healer, right? Well, without going into great detail on where I found this information, the premise was that Jesus vibrated on such a high level, he was filled with such an amazing amount of light and love, that people were drawn to him. He was merely the conduit that gave people hope and faith to heal themselves. The more light and love you fill yourself with, the brighter you will burn for him.
