Following my heart....

[ValerieA]

Journaling:

I just wanted to get some thoughts out.

It's this job...H's job...How can we "piece"?...How can we try to work on the R if he's still going to be traveling with work?

He's still in Bakersfield. What was only supposed to be 3 days has somehow turned into 3 WEEKS!!! Then he's supposed to go to either Mississippi or Alabama after that.

How can it possibly work? It's like he's still working at his previous job of 3 years.

That's what killed "us" (our R and M). All that time apart. Sure, we had our problems...our issues...but we always got through them...ALWAYS...because H was around then. We were together. Never stopped spending QT with one another. It's when he took on that job with XXXX (ex-boss) that the R really went downhill.

H and I have talked about this, and he's even said it, too. He said he knows that it was the time apart that really messed things up for us.

The job he has now....well, we were talking the other night, and he was telling me about having to go out of state. He also mentioned that a few other employees have worked 100 days straight! I said, "Geez!.....Do any of these guys have families? Are they M'ed?" H laughed a little and said, "You know what? Every single one of them is D'ed...Ha...I wonder why."

(SIGH)....I wonder, too.

If spending time together is so crucial to a R, then how can this work??? How can we work on it to make it what we want it to be if he's never going to be here again???

Anybody have anything to say? I know you're reading. I'll check back later. I'm going to take the kids to see "Doogal" then we're going out for dinner.

Thanks for listening.