Call me dense will ya?! I was reading your post thinking, this sounds so familiar and couldnt remember the background on your sitch, so I clicked your previous thread link. I didnt realize that you are JV! Silly me! I've been missing you and you're right under my nose all the time!
Hang in there. Our H's seem to be living in the same universe, waiting on "the job" and making lots of promises that don't materialize. I can relate so much to how you feel.. the emptiness when they say ILU and remembering how it felt when they wouldnt say that. Just the "it's over" and I don't have it anymore feelings. And I'm also beginning to relate to wanting to be kind and feeling compassion (instead of that hurt and anger) when they are in a bad place. I feel friendship for my H and am guarding my feelings very closely. Do you feel yourself doing that too? Not wanting to share personal things anymore? That is so bizarre for me.
You're doing a great job keeping it all together there and you sound so healthy in this place.. just keeping the door open and moving on with life. You should be proud of how far you've come!
